A Friend

' I'll walk with you, even you fall apart..

will always be beside you, never leaving

even till the end '

Coz we are friends , the world knows this part ..

You are(or were) always there beside me,

To hold me whenever ii stumble from this steep ..

My life changed, my world is turned,

To have you as my ' ULTIMATE SUPPORT '..

The world said - 'People change', but ii said - 'My Life is changed'..

ii never trusted the world, coz ii had you as my 'friend'..

but my mind always said, what if those rumours are correct !!??

No matter what our friendship continued ..

A day came, when ii heard what you said.. (about me  : c )

Shattering all the trust we had .. !!

ii cried n cried, 

but no one could see tears behind my smile ..

ii cared for you, loved you..

wasn't that enough for you to make it worth ??

ii forgot myself in your love n friendship ..

but all you could give me was hatred n nothing !!

 It is that what a friend for ?

To pretend to love you n finally move on  !!

Backstabbing, lies n pretence ..

what else can a 'friend' do to hurt his 'friend' ..!!

How can trust be created in this world ..

When the most cherished relations are burying under the earth !

Who can we trust ? Who can we not ?

To share our feelings of glee n sorrow !!

ii guess 'LIFE' is only a matter to live ..

Without any true relations, without any spree ..

LIFE is a bland combination of happiness n sorrow ..

in which no matter how hard you try to be happy

it'll always take you to the blackened hole !! 

 GOD BLESS

EXAMMSSSS !!

hii.. its been months since ii posted anything : | well, exams doesnt allow to fix any damn thing .. have so much to write .. I'l be back soon :)                                                                                                                                                                              PS : I cant even edit anything as m all via mobile. ; ) I'l write soon.   : ) 

A Message ~

In life we meet many new people. Some become just a know counterpart , some become 'just friends', some become close, and some are just the 'best'. My mom (as every other mom does) had always preached me to do good, be a noble person as my name suggests : ) , and I always try to live up-to it. 

I don't know when it started or grew rather .. but my love for J (Jesus (j) as I call him) evolved. I was l'ill gurl, when I started to talk to him whenever I was alone. I got fascinated by his teachings and his great quotations. One of which I always remember "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do". This line changed my way of living and made me a less of a tangled person, as I would state :D. And as my mom would say, I respect my own religion gods too but 'J IS SPECIAL' , even though I dont know much abot him or his teachings : )


So, J am thankful to you for all the love you are 'showering' on me : ). I love you infinitely more,as earlier, than ever  [<3]


God bless

She is ..

She's beautiful, She's fragile, 

She's just another full of silent cries .. [which no-one hears] .. 

She's alone, all by herself .. 

Looking outt of the window where the sadness always ready to hit .. 

She's frustrated, she's all drunk, its quite late, someone please wake her up .. 

She's was once cheerful and happy but all her glee was ferried ..

Consumed by a blackened-ed-hole, 

She hates people around, feel it all a pretense ..

She's says world's all Topsy turvey for her .. 

And she doesn't understand a thing and so does the rest !
She wants to scream and shout, but can anyone hear her mourning sound ?
Some-one is being deeply missed by her pure heart, 
But that l'il missing is enough to make her tear apart !  

She's all broke and can't decide, and makes her feelings disguised ! 

She's just fooling herself when she knows that she's the only one who'll get hurt, 
Still she's obstinate to let out and share !!  

A trusting sorrow of what is unsaid, her heart still aches, [still at those things]

But still she knows, no matter what she has to go on ..      

                                                                                                                

Just  as  'She'  is ..

God Bless
    

Just One Of Those Days.

Life is truly an unexpected journey. A battle ~
Often I wonder why I think over something that can't be possible !! Well, thats what life is all about .. thinking for the unexpected, and waiting for unwanted.
* Happy Diwali *
Yea, today is Diwali, one of that festival which I love [or loved]. Everything is so cheerful this time of the year. The weather itself seems to be singing a merry song. But it is just one of those days for me that is compelling me to think. Think over something that I don't want. Its always useless to think over things that makes us sad. But what about the *Sadistic Pleasure*  we get from it ? The pleasure we get thinking about the left overs ? Yes, it is good but, bad too. I wana be content and happy that's just what I want. It isn't a big thing forgiving others but what if we don't forget at the first place ? My problems and dilemma aren't that large, just what a normal teen faces, but still thinking over in-required do hurts sometimes. I preach others to forget when I myself can't !! Is is reallii ok ?  yea, it is one of those days when I wana be lost in those days and memories.  Not worrying about anything, anyone, don't talk to anyone .. just be with myself .. feel low , listen 'our songs' and just spit out those feelings which are creating a turmoil inside of me, Killing me.. but STILL for someone's sake we have to smile, forgetting the pain we go through .. It happens. And for that reason am Smiling. Hoping to be happy from outside so that it get through inside of me too. I don't know why such days come !!?
I hope this night passes by soon .. 

Just Hoping .

God Bless

When Words Fail Music Speaks ~ ~

As the day goes by, some thing or the other happens that make me go down to some old memory lane ..
The whole day just passes by like that .. not enough time even for myself !! Well, still, some how I try to cease it from some where : )


Its true how some songs just exactly define how we feel .. at any moment of time .. in that way only these song define 'my' feelings .. coz  -  


                                                      When words fail Muzic speaks !

Fearless - Colbie Calilat

                                             

Long gone and Moved on - The Script

Away - Enrique

Goodbye - Secondhand 

                                           

I never told you - Colbie

Its not late when my mood swings .. [not much though]

   

   Calm under the waves -  Maria 

                                             

Breakthrough - Colbie

       

             Need You Now -  Lady Antebellum

                                               

Paperweight

                                     

Dream - Priscilla Ahn

Finally .. I always end up listening to 'this' song .. though its short but still it makes my feelings flip a lot, and in a way leaves my lashes wet and bring some flashback of old memories : | !!

And oddly but truly this one is special to me .

. Just No Words To Describe This Song .

. I Love It .

[In Every Way]

                                     

Simply undefined ~~

 God Bless .. 

.. A Trying Notion ..

# My one of those composition that I admire 'The most'  #


Am tired .. am drained .. its enough I can't take more strain !!
I did what I could .. but, it wasn't enough for this racing world ..
A falling stage, a reckoned state ..
Just another thing adds to the backward steps .. : (

Chained by an invisible defeat .. won't that let me succeed ??

Oh, now look what people are saying .. making funn just another stabbing !!

They don't see their own self and start to comment on what others possess !!

Am sad am torn .. those morbid days are back on the shore ..

Caught by this facade .. its hard to find the way home .. 

But with l'il strength I know I can go on .. 

The day I succeed , this day would be a reminder ..

Of all the pains I took to reach this stage .. 

Its a hard route to get to final , 
but with regular practices I can fulfill my desires ..

I just want to get to that triumphed state ..

From where I can look upon those who made my funn .. 

To wave them a goodbye of my winning thats worth enough !! 

.. I'll keep on trying ..

God Bless ..