An Ambiguity ~ ~

. CLUELESS .

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Back again in the same whirlpool of thoughts and happenings !! Many a times it becomes difficult to pen down the inevitable thoughts that the mind perceives .. things, again are quite messed up these days .. sometimes it feels like the people whom I meet everyday..who consumes 1/4 part of my day, whom I have known since 11 years now .. !  .. are complete strangers to me !! well .. I guess am strange to them, in a way   : |   !! 
Everything's the same everywhere .. the same people .. the same morbid atmosphere around me (for me) .. the same houses I pass by (don't know what I wana say but there is something) , but somethings have changed so much .. 'LIFE'  moves on .. none can halt it ..    

Its a thought-full query that why suddenly someone so known, so trusted becomes fraudulent towards the ones they once loved  and don't see the pain they cause                       them everyday !!??                                 
 Can anyone be trusted blindfolded !?          

Why do someone whom we once loved exceptionally without demands deceives us  without any valid reason  !!?? 

           
   weird ..     * sigh *   

         

      Queries are meant to be answered, but some are an ordeal to pursue.. 

Well I guess I would never understand the concept of 'Expecting' ever .. its like expecting a lot from those you know, but who can never return you anything back !! Well .. still we do .. sometimes it actually becomes hard to breathe .. as in choked by some element (or by 'someone') that is most fatal one , came across..(yea, i know, it sounds like some shit movie but still it feels that way many a times)  ~ ~                                          
Some things hurts badly like stabbing straight to a sensitive part of the body .. its  easy to fall for someone .. be it any kinda relation, but to actually get outt of it ..is t the real deal .. 

People break relations so easily .. not coz they wanted to but coz someone else brimmed their mind with filth about someone they love ?!    

Is it correct ?  

     Or the person too fool enough, who can't decide the benefits of his own life ?             

 Or else he's defending himself by putting someone else's name !!?     

          Its thoughtfull and funny too that how a blossomed and cherished relation turns outt to be a disaster !!  

*phew*   

    Share, care, love, everything is done and there in that realtion, people give examples of it, envy it,    

Still - ' it  ruins '  

  I read some where - ' if you can't keep your own secrets, then how can you expect the others to do so ? '   -  true, thatt is. 

Its hard to believe that the thing you cried for days and nights .. swelling your lashes till you die crying for it .. overtook your mind with none other than its thoughts, killed yourself by waiting for it, is actually bugging you again so much now , whose importance shouldn't matter even to a point in your life !!                     

We can't change the world, just us .. but still we try .. I do feel sometimes the real sense of loss and regret, but regret is a mistake and I don't regret any of it .. coz that might be something which made me happy once so to think of it when it is all over now .. as a mistake (when it was all my choice), is just   -              

                          
      P.O.I.N.T.L.E.S.S

        

    Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next .. 'A Delicious Ambiguity' , I would say !! Its a beautifull gift, not to be wasted on filthy things, but to be cherished for the good ones !! 

So just 'try' and keep going - 

                                                                  ' still  trying '                                                                  
    *sigh*       

The one who is cheerful, always has a way to find way through the HEARTS.

GOD BLESS  : )

. A Stoяy To Tєll .

L.I.F.E.L.E.S.S

I was a carefree bird .. but you caught and prison-ed me ..
I was happy in my prison as no one could ever be ..
Life was going on like it used to be ..
I relished my time spent with you .. and never  tried to break free .. !!
Days passed by and you captured me by your lies ..
Ugly world this is .. I always thought to myself ..
 and you are my antidote to pain ..

Our bond got strong .. and the world envied it on .. and on ..

You always mended my broken feathers .. when no one could even see me ..

Betray, lies and rumors .. spread by all ..

But it didn't bother me coz you were my all ..

.. Damped Now ..

Time takes turn, as it always did ..

The l'il fragile bird's life changed into a drifting dream ..

Her wounded wings no one could fix ..

......

Resting in her monotonous cage where she fits .. 

Looking haywire .. just for people to gaze ..

Now she is replaced by another bird who is more bright ..

To turn her life into a gloomy night ..!!

She memorizes the song she sang for 'THE ONE'.. who made her damp ..

All the beautiful things said to the l'il bird, now seems to be just a pretense..

To trap her into the abyss .. That was the plan ..

Now finally she realizes that prison is truly a nightmare to reside in ..

Which leaves her with no wings to fly into the sky !! 
Days goes by like it used to pass ..
Just waiting for some miracle to pass .. !!

.. A New Life ..

A day comes by when someone passes by ..

She still griefs her old pain ..

But the new one says ..  am here to change .. !!

An affable man, he love her .. plays with her .. feeds her,

Like no-one could treat ..

Not bounding her by bars of grief .. !!

The beautiful bird is happy now like shez never been ..

And loves to sing whenever she feels .. !!

Now the bird .. clings by some values ..

To judge and trust ..

The world is a charade .. is the only crux .. !! 

.. The Free Mee ..

Well, I never thought I could write so well  : )

God Bless..